Already Gone by Kelly Clarkson

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you
Now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry
Started with a perfect kiss
Then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

BLCU Diary

I created a new blog.

It's called My BLCU Diary. Link: http://myblcudiary.blogspot.com

I will post anything and everything about my 3 months adventure here in BLCU.

I will try to blog in Chinese too but that's gonna take me ages for 1 post because I have to look through dictionaries and figure out which is which. Well, that's how I will learn. Right?

Home left me to live alone

Went out for dinner with Seng Ming and Melissa last Thursday. Seng Ming was talking about how cool it is that I'm going to Beijing. He seems more excited than me and then he asked me:

Seng Ming: Have you ever left home to live somewhere else on your own?
Me: Erm...My home left me to live at home alone before.

He forgot that I was left alone in Malaysia before. Brother went to Iowa to study and my parents went to New York to work. Haha! :D

I can't wait to go to Beijing and after that, more plans to come and still plotting it. ;)

Oops! Too bad!

It's really stupid for letting your head rule instead of your heart.

They were good friends or so she thought. She's all that he wanted but something held him back. He gave her up because of somebody and he didn't want to lose her either with all the sweet talking and random texts. I guess he is feeling the pinch now that she does not seem to care anymore.

Random

"You're happy with me now because I'm doing well. But will you be there for me when I'm down? Feel my sadness when I'm sad? Feel my pain when I'm in pain?"

Yes. 'cause I can really feel the pain now.

Salsa Performance - New Routine - Boom Boom

Performed at Metro Club on August 6th.

Results, resignation, BLCU

My result's out today. As expected, I fail. What surprised me is that I fail with high marks. I really didn't expect that but it's also very frustrating. It's just another 6 more marks to pass! :(

Like I said before, I'm not going to give up this time. I will try again next sitting. But this time, I'll have to take the exam in Beijing Language and Culture University (BLCU) because I'm heading there this September for a 3 months intensive Chinese course.

I'm so excited! Yes, I'm traveling alone. People always ask me this and they all said that I'm very brave. A girl - who can't speak Mandarin - going to China - alone. Wow!

I resigned from my current company. It's really sad that I had to leave but I think I made the right decision. I have to go somewhere. Do something. Different. More challenge.

My big boss (the owner of the company) actually called me and talked to me when he knew that I resigned. I was like...wow, he remember me. Haha! Anyway, I got a really good testimonial from my company which I think I deserve. :P I really do!